Friday, November 24, 2006

You Shake Me Back

You profess a love
That is stifling
A love secured
To my wrists
Chains clink clank
As I walk


Your presence
Overwhelms
My senses
Like a leech,
Drawing out
A life line

My memories
Lie in a pool
At your feet
You walk,
Splish splash and they break
Violent storms on the pavement

My lips draw out
A silent sound
A siren call
Impotent.
You sink your teeth into my skin
Rapturing a shield

My mistakes draw a painting
Above my head
In it, you feature
Alone.

A dark figure
Wielding a dead petal
Your weapon of choice,
Beauty
Foregone.

My eyes drink you in,
Sensing malice
Your smile.
My fingers twitch
Across my breasts
in my mind's eyes.

You hold the key
My chamber, a glass alcove
I tip tap testing the strength
You shake me back in my place.

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

My impenetrateable gates

Your eyes draw forth
A perfect grade,
Our happiness
A stable cage.

Moments of doubt,
Cloudless joy,
Rarity,
Time
Such a cruel joke.

Your cautious passion,
Explodes.
My impenetrateable gates,
Destroyed.

In My Mind's Eye

In my mind’s eye,
I crawl in a cave
Borrow deep inside
Shut the opening with a rock
Smell the sun hitting rocks,
That musky smell of stale morning dew

You think I am smiling
Never looking into my eyes
It’s a challenge,
To smile like you mean it and
Cry inside

It hurts, most times,
Knifes slitting your skin
Just deep enough to draw blood,
Never leaving a trace behind
So thin,
Invisible

All around me people fall
Like soldiers on a battleground
Struck by random bullets
Fired by angry men,
None know the true target,
Their own heart

That door stuck shut and I’m left here
I see no way out
Just a faint light
Stretch out my hands to touch it
You think the light is salvation?
Guess again

I would like to live at the bottom of the sea,
Buried between sand grains
Deep in fantasy.

It

It’s only a blank piece of paper
You think.
Not realising the full potential of
Harm it could cause,
Self deprecation,
Doubt
The increased inability to concentrate,
What it all comes to but this one page,
This blank slate,
Challenge
Shouting at me

The expectation,
This blank page challenges me,
Mock,
My inability to carve some words into
Its purity

Simple task you think,
Writing thoughts into paper
Yet hard enough to admit to
My unconscious,
Now I have to wave under the nose of scrutiny,
To you, world,
To take apart,
Mock it,
Me

A number of words multiplied,
Tempting me
Their flawless appearance,
Majestic in their loneliness,
The army of my nightmares,
Defeated tale of wannabe heroes
Massacred
Loose limbs
Zombified stares,
Mass of angry defeatists

The secret lies here,
Within your beauty,
Stark ugliness,
Bare simplicity,
Secrets unlocking
Mysteries,
My composition of light

You are the end to my thirst,
Hunger,
Loneliness,
Neediness

All I know is within you.
Between the spaces of the letters,
Your caresses of steel and thunder,
Strength and power,
Softness and curves,
Calmness,
Your rage
Juxtaposition by one

I trace you along the way,
Memorising each one of you individually,
The same,
Each different in its own way

Holding that missing
Piece of puzzle,
Refusing to separate,
Not quite fitting together.
Pushing and shoving to fit into a box,
That box you all assume,
Society’s line of best fit.

Impact

Like a turbulent sea,
Desert storm,
Took over,
Your life.

Harsh,
Loud,
Exuberant,
Hushed sound,
Of your soul.

Smiled,
Danced,
Flirted.
Your pain,
A distant breeze.

Your heart,
Contracting,
Painful childbirth
Of love.

Ungrateful product,
Moments forever
Lost, Your life,
Forgotten.

Your seas,
Calmed over,
Desert storms
Disappeared
Order reinstalled.

Now I fall,
Lost in deep space,
Hopeless,
Suffocating.

Painful impact of
Meteorites colliding,
Exploring,
My insides.

Your smile,
Knowing, mocking.
My smile,
Strained, broken.